discovered likely have mcas
started diet for it, helps a lot
but hard to recover from , to remain stable as, process everything
have hurt friends due to not being able to contain emotion, and more importantly can tell at risk of being worse as we figure out diet
too much to think on. Too much we understand. need to recover, .can't, hurt anyone else now. too close to stability. so close
more stable now, tho still much too afraid to socialize.
definetly intend to make things, ideally get enough strength to go places, before trying again..
Think we've been going into aniphilectic shock consistently our whole lives
rly struggling to process everything
thought that was, purely guilt and fear