We've so many people we want to talk too
mcas has caused us to learn , so much, about ourselves and more. So much that we, maybe in part cus didnt heal enough yet, frantically deleted several posts here because we knew we likely had a completely wrong perspective.
we understand so many new things, and better understand so many old
we want to update so many beings, and apologize to so many more, if not teach
yet we know we're not ready yet. We know we'd risk causing harm, as we've not healed enough physically to handle ourselves under stress. To handle our immune system, under stress.
we're still hungry most of the time, still strugging. but we don't want to wait. especially with family, or anyone else we may lose chance to speak too.
so much went wrong, or in part, because of mcas' effect on us. very possibly, literally everything, did, with the impact of other factors now incredibly difficult to know.
. yet, at the same time, it seems theoretically possible that if mcas or its cause was genetic and/or effected us at or before being born. it may be the entire reason we'll be able to do well when under stress, and could have if we'd adressed it from the start.
since it may have been the cause of our internal and external boundaries, and hence rapid learning speed and high empathy and sensitivity. Let alone plurality or controlled psychosis.
this is incredibly, difficult to process.